This isn't how this blog was supposed to turn out. Right about now, after I'd graduated and was working on finding my place in the world, I guess I was supposed to have the right job and the right apartment, and living the right life in New York as a 22 year old liberal arts school grad and passing as a twink just enough to get the few things I needed that I felt I couldn't get on my own...
I didn't want this blog to be some dumb kid bitching about how the recession has fucked him over. In the past couple months I've suffered a few setbacks. But fuck, everyone's going through bad shit right now. The good news is, I may have a job right now. The bad news is that it's back in the dead, sexless suburbs. Part of me feels like taking it is putting me behind in terms of what my future is supposed to be, like I'm delaying destiny and being in a place where I can self-actualize (sexually and artistically). But on the other hand, it's fucking money.
I shouldn't even be bitching about this kind of thing when almost all my friends are unemployed. But this is definitely not where I'd wanted to be...
3 comments:
Two weeks ago I took a job I would have NEVER have said yes to 6 months ago. Precisely because it is NOW and it's a job - that pays the rent, food and bills.
Suck it up - make the most of it - find a way to live a good life with it.
Other people have lost their homes... you and I have no reason to bitch.
Shit - CT sucks (and not in the good way) as far as gay life. I feel for you kid. But such are our economic times. Suck it in, maybe it will get better in a year or two.
But, it is a pretty place to live. :) If you find someone and want to get away from it all...
New Haven is an amazing city. Small, yes, but it has a lot going for it.
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