MDW BLOG

I'm taking a break from hell (writing final papers on race theory in the middle of the night while wasted as fuck) to vent.

I've been going through a crisis lately - not a mid-life one, but it might have something to do with the fact that I'm about to graduate from college and my life is gonna change dramatically. But what's been happening is that lately I've been reverting back to something I hadn't done much of since high school - I've been playing thrash metal guitar...

I don't write about it much on here but along with being a student, a drunk, and a writer, I'm pretty good at music. I've been a self-taught piano/keyboard player since I was six years old, and I've been playing guitar for about nine years now. See, before I was gay, I used to be a "rock guy," and was really into metal. I even had a band in high school that didn't go anywhere. What ended up happening was rock music got bad at about the same time that I was starting to come out and explore being gay and electro and stuff. Needless to say, I started to leave guitar playing behind and bought myself a Korg.

These days, with all the stress of getting ready to enter the real world, I guess I'm retrogressing (there's a word from race politics!) and I've found myself picking up my old guitar a lot more. The problem is that my old equipment is shot. My old amp blew out a few years ago when one of my friends plugged his bass into it when I wasn't around, and my old Fender's been beaten around to the point where the pickups don't work right anymore - plus it was never that great for shredding. I've needed a new guitar for a while, and buying a second one is kind of a bigger deal than buying the first.

The point is, I need a new guitar and a new amp, and I'm almost thinking about blowing part of my savings (that I've been keeping for, you know, the real world...) on it, but I dunno. The easiest thing would be if I could get someone to sponsor me for it, and trust me, I look sexy with a guitar. Anyone wanna buy me an Ibanez?