Diesel Washington and Bjoern Giger

From Folsom Prison (Titan Media)
DieselWashington.blogspot.com

Prediction: Michelle Obama will rise to Gay Icon Status

I'm just putting this out there. I think that Michelle Obama has the potential to become a real icon for gay men. She's got just the right amount of attitude and she's been a victim fighting hard against the same judgmental right-wing forces that have oppressed gays. Her only crime? Being a strong woman who speaks her mind.

I don't think it'll be very long before we see drag queens dressing as her.

Become a fan of Michelle Obama here.

Fun with Drunk Texting

"You suck! If you were here i'd force you down and fuck you right now!"

A text I received from a friend after I refused his phone call at 4:30 this morning.

A Solution to All of My Problems...

A 35 year old man on Gay.com, whose profile reads " ...looking for fun...now" has offered me a spare room with clean sheets in the event that I get too frustrated with life in the suburbs for the summer...

He follows this up this generous offer by asking:

myhero: cool....whats your cock like?
myhero: i'm not asking cuz I'm into big cocks..actually the opposite

I'm sure that would be a great way to spend a summer...

Joe Oppedisano Shoot for The Leather Man feat. Steve Cruz

Pictures by Joe Oppedisano for The Leather Man in Manhattan. Anyone know who the guy is who's holding Steve Cruz?


SteveCruzXXX
via Fair View

Afternoon Video

I saw this video on Mythos Man this afternoon and it got me worked up, so I had to steal it. I'm not sure where it's from so if anyone's got any details feel free to send em.

MythosMan.blogspot.com

More on Corrupting Minors...

Today I had to watch my six year old niece again for a few hours, which means I got to have fun exerting my influence over her. She always spends the first half hour of each visit begging me to put on the Disney Channel - I think Miley Cyrus is a bad influence - until she finally accepts that I won't do it and sits down. I managed to get her to calm down early today by putting on an old MadTV rerun. A commercial came on with a man and a woman kissing and for some reason, she started saying, "Marriage is bad for people." I was a little surprised by that, but told her I agreed. I'm wondering if she was repeating some reason her mother might have given her for why she never married her father...

After that we watched music videos for a while. I asked her if she thought Rihanna looked like an alien - because I do sometimes - and she agreed. Then we drew pictures together of Rihanna as an alien, and they actually came out pretty good. At one point I saw there was a documentary about President Andrew Jackson on and I switched to it to see how she would react. I told her she should try to draw a picture of him but instead, and I swear I didn't say anything to put this into her head, she drew a picture of two Native American girls crying.

I'm waiting to hear what her mother thinks of the drawings.

Because It's That Time of the Year...

Here's an excerpt of an article from The Onion posted on Gawker...

Gay-Pride Parade Sets Mainstream Acceptance Of Gays Back 50 Years

"I'd always thought gays were regular people, just like you and me, and that the stereotype of homosexuals as hedonistic, sex-crazed deviants was just a destructive myth," said mother of four Hannah Jarrett, 41, mortified at the sight of 17 tanned and oiled boys cavorting in jock straps to a throbbing techno beat on a float shaped like an enormous phallus. "Boy, oh, boy, was I wrong"...

...The Los Angeles Gay Pride Parade, Thorne noted, is part of a decades-old gay-rights tradition. But, for mainstream heterosexuals unfamiliar with irony and the reclamation of stereotypes for the purpose of exploding them, the parade resembled an invasion of grotesque outer-space mutants, bent on the destruction of the human race.

"I have a cousin who's a gay, and he seemed like a decent enough guy to me," said Iowa City, IA, resident Russ Linder, in Los Angeles for a weekend sales seminar. "Now, thanks to this parade, I realize what a freak he's been all along. Gays are all sick, immoral perverts."

The rest of the article can be found here at: The Onion
via Gawker

Block

I haven't written too much about my artistic side on here, but when I'm not out being a total whore one of things that I do is write fiction. I've studied it for a while and I've been sending my work out for almost two years now, but I haven't gotten published yet - I know already that these things take time and connections, so I'm unfazed.

But for some reason, lately, I haven't had much energy to work on short stories. I finished one story two weeks ago, but I should be starting something else. The weird thing is that I have a few ideas that I think could come out really well, but I can't get myself motivated to complete any of them.

I think it may be because I worked too hard on my writing last semester. Between January and May I wrote four short stories and a sixty page novella. My stories typically deal with people trapped in dysfunctional relationships or having control issues. I've been told by heterosexual women in workshops that my stories with these themes are "hot". But some of the ideas I've had lately are more mild and sentimental - I may, in fact, be losing my edge.

In the meantime, I should work on getting what I already have in great condition. Does anyone out there wanna publish me?

Jake Deckard and Kyle King from Bill in Exile

Scott from BillinExile got these pictures in San Francisco after ordering Jake Deckard and Kyle King to make out. Check out the rest of the post here.

Back on the Mainland

I came back from Fire Island yesterday afternoon, and I think I'm still recovering. I went out to a store last night and kept having to remind myself that I can't just cruise any attractive guy I see anywhere in public.

I got there with my fuck bud on Friday afternoon and started drinking pretty much after I got off the ferry. The weather stayed beautiful the whole weekend, with the exception of a bad thunderstorm that drove us into a bar and underwear party at 2 am the first night. Afterward, me and two guys ran out on the beach wasted and screaming that we wanted to see guys messing around - which we did happen to find a lot of - and we ended up getting followed all the way back home.

I found myself falling into the routine of low tea, high tea, and then more partying after midnight, pretty easily. One of the weird things about the Pines was that I felt like I was the youngest guy there. Most of the guys I met were in their late 20s or older, and of course I looked pretty young out there. Though it should be pretty obvious from this blog that I'm not turned off by men that age. The only other guys I saw who looked like they were 21 seemed pretty tweaked out.

I didn't take many pictures myself, but I'm sure I'll be getting some emailed. For now, I'm getting readjusted to not being in a completely gay environment.

Made Up My Mind

Looks like I'm going to Fire Island this weekend!

I'm heading out in a few minutes to go spend the night with my fuck bud, then we're leaving in the morning, so I'm not gonna be posting for a few days. But I'm sure I'll have a lot to write about when I get back. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Later.

John McCain's Connection to $4 Gas

Interesting reporting from MSNBC on the former Enron executives who are running John McCain's campaign, and their connection to the energy speculation that's raping us at the gas pump.

Nash Lawler and Kirk Cummings

Hot House Backroom Exclusive
http://backroom.hothouse.com/

Decisions...

I was originally planning on going to Folsom East on Sunday. It would be my first "leather event" and I was looking forward to going and getting some pics, seeing Chi Chi LaRue and Husker Du's Bob Mould and a lot of hot guys in leather. But it looks like my plans might change...

My fuck bud just invited me to go with him to Fire Island for the weekend to stay at the house he and his friends rent. It looks like one of them might not be able to make it and so he's gonna have a room to himself. I've also never been to the Pines, and I've been hoping he'd take me. I haven't seen him in a while, and it's definitely the kind of place I have to get to, being a young gay writer after all.

So I have to make a decision -Folsom East or Fire Island?

Relationship Types

My friend told me the other day that he thinks I'm secretly a relationship person. If you've been reading this blog for a while, this would probably sound weird to you. I definitely emphasize being unattached. I always say I prefer the type of situation where I have a friend to just to hang out with, relax, have a beer, and mess around.

But I guess in some respects he might have a point. I tend to not have too many one-night stands, and I definitely value friendships with people I hook up with. I like to be able to have a conversation with the guy I'm about to fuck. In the past, when I have been in situations where there's nothing about a guy I can relate to, I'll make it completely about the sex, fuck em, and leave, but that's not the type of situation I prefer.

On the other hand, there's a few things about me that I don't think make for good relationship material. For one thing, I'm afraid of commitment. The most steady fuck buddy that I have now and I currently chat online a lot, but we only see each other once every few weeks, and there's no pressure to get too close, we've never discussed dating or anything. Still, my friend points out that I've been fucking this guy for almost a year now. But I've still fooled around with a few other guys since that started.

I think all this means is that I'm the fuck buddy type, which is something I already knew. I like being friends with the guy I'm fucking, but I don't like "dating" or being romantic. Am I open to the possibility of having a boyfriend? Sure, but they'd probably have to meet all the right standards perfectly. For now, I'm still not sure I know what those standards are...

New Sagat

FSagat.blogspot.com

Tacos and Hailstorms

During the late-afternoon, me and a friend decided to go get something to eat at one of our favorite spots to hang out during our senior year of high school, a small place north of Westchester county called Rosemary's Texas Taco.

It's a small restaurant with four tables and tons of great tie-dyed and spraypainted crap everywhere, and it's run by an older woman with purple hair. There's all kinds of decorations ranging from pre-war World's Fair paraphernalia to authentic performance fliers from bands like A Flock of Seagulls. She's always blasting 1980's College Rock. We used to get high and drive there all the time. I figured I had to get some pictures.


And sure enough, on the way back driving we got caught in one of the worst storms I've ever been in in my life. My friend had to cram her car in under the overhang of a gas station to escape from the FOUR-INCH HAIL that was beating the hell out of her car. I've never heard of that happening in the Northeast. Here's a pic I took while we were waiting for the storm to end of water pouring through the overhang.

Power just came back on!

Right-Wing Culture Warrior Antics

Tony Perkins and the Family Research Council put out this terrifying ad in California newspapers this weekend. Apparently, yesterday may have been the last Father's Day...


Posted at the Family Research Council
via Joe.My.God.

Selling Out

Just an observation, but I seem to be getting more men wanting to buy my used underwear lately, and I'm actually starting to consider it...

How much should I be charging for that??

Craving Attention?

Speaking of needing attention, here's another picture for LoveSimbakui...

"Not Into the Scene..." UPDATED

This guy started messaging me a week ago and hasn't given up. He acknowledges again and again that he knows I'm not answering because I'm not interested, but I guess he's hoping I'll give in.

gwichnorth: it stinks i keep trying to know you
gwichnorth: but i dont hear back:(
gwichnorth: i am a very warm sensual guy not into the scene

Somehow men always think that the way to get a guy to love them - or maybe just fuck them - is to prove that they're "not into the scene." So far I've never had a guy try to pick me up by telling me they were a scenester, but at this point it might be welcomed.

UPDATE: He came back:

gwichnorth: one day i guess you will say hey what are you up to
gwichnorth: :)
gwichnorth: looking to meet?
gwichnorth: would you like to meet for safe no strings fun?

I guess I'm too nice a guy to hit the ignore button. That or I just like the attention.

Mike Roberts, Josh West, and Kyle King

"Hung top men, Mike Roberts And Josh West, take turns on Kyle King's ass down a dark and secluded alley. First Mike pokes and chokes King and then West sucks and fucks King. All three hung men go at it covering all the bases making sure this sexual encounter lives up to it's 'King Size' fame."

From King Size (Hot House)
backroom.hothouse.com

African Scams

Looks like I've started getting African scam letters on my email account for this blog. I thought these things had died out years ago, but I guess the fact that they're still around means that enough people are still getting tricked. This one refers to me as "DEAREST ONE OF GOD" , and is from a woman whose dead husband's name is Mr. Benson...This one seems pretty poorly crafted though, in fact, it doesn't even give clear instructions for what the person is supposed to do. I think she might be asking me to build her a church...

I want a church that will use this fund for orphanages, widows, propagating the word of God and to endeavour that the house of God is maintained.

The Bible made us to understand that blessed is the hand that giveth. I took this decision because I don抰 have any child that will inherit this money and my husband relatives are not Christians and I don抰 want my husband抯 efforts to be used by unbelievers. I don抰 want a situation where this money will be used in an ungodly way. This is why I am taking this decision. I am not afraid of death hence i know where I am going. I know that I am going to be in the bosom of the Lord. Exodus 14 VS 14 says that the Lord will fight my case and I shall hold my peace.

Contact me on the above e-mail address for more information抯, any delay in your reply will give me room in sourcing another church or individual for this same purpose. Please assure me that you will act accordingly as I Stated herein. Hoping to receive your reply.

I guess it's important to remember that all of these people who fall for these scams are the same people who are voting in elections, taking part in the democratic process, believing whatever they hear from their politicians, or their ministers. Makes me think that maybe I should consider starting a "church"...

Memorials

This might seem out of place on a blog like this, seeing as I don't write about politics or things that are tasteful very often. While it may not always come up on here, it's an interest of mine, and I've always kept an eye on the media - maybe that's part of what got me into writing, and eventually blogging - so the news today came as a pretty big shock.


Tim Russert (1950-2008)
One of the few respectable individuals in a media that has become increasingly undignified.

Shedding Some Light On Some Issues...

Lovesimbakui: maybe this is why you seem so straight to everyone
Mascdudewriter: lol, because my role models growing up were all straight white males in their 20s who were vaguely white trash?
Lovesimbakui: yup
Lovesimbakui: that would do it
Mascdudewriter: also explains why my first celebrity crush was marky mark
Lovesimbakui: yup
Lovesimbakui: that too

Self-Promotion, Parties, Misc.

Here's me smiling for my friend in Dallas:


There's this one pretty strange, pathetic guy who's been IMing me for a few years now on Gay.com trying to get my attention. He's polite and he's not horrible looking but just seems a bit off. Tonight is one of the nights I decide to answer him:

forct: you got a b-friend?
Mascdudewriter: nah
forct: your like a model you probably got a bunch of hot guys chasing you... lol

And for some reason that actually made me feel kind of good.

Tomorrow I'm throwing a small party for my friend who's going abroad to Chile for a month, since I'm gonna have my dad's apartment to myself for a while. Any drink suggestions?

Joe Strong

I've been looking for some decent pics of this guy for a while. There's a scene I love in the video Depraved (All Worlds Video) where Joe's on his knees sucking Mike Power's cock, and for a second he takes his mouth off, spits in Mike's face, then goes right back to sucking him. I would have liked to have gotten a picture from that scene, but I think I can settle for this:


Joe Strong at ExtraBigDicks

New Stalker!

It seems I've managed to get myself a new stalker. I messaged a guy on Manhunt.net a week ago who I actually thought was an ex-fuck bud of mine who had been in the Marines. The picture only showed his chest and arms, and he had a tattoo that looked like one my friend had on his right arm. Turns out it was a different guy. He didn't have a face pic but offered to show me what he looked like on cam through Yahoo messenger. He was average looking, Italian, with buzzed hair. He seemed kind of quiet, and told me that he was straight...and that he wanted a bud to jerk off with. He told me he's never fooled around with a guy (which means, considering he's been on Manhunt for more than a year, that he's probably just cybering), and that he thinks about girls when he jerks off. I kind of lost interest from all that and stopped talking, but he IMed me from time to time to say we should jerk off, and I'd express that I wasn't interested.

Things got weirder last night, when he IMed me and started mentioning things that I knew I hadn't told him. I have a Myspace page I hardly ever look at that, and it says my hometown is the town where my school is. He asked me if I was there, and I realized that he'd probably found me on Myspace, which is a bit creepy since most of the information on my page is fake. Then he asked or my name, and I gave him my first name (innocent enough..) and he said, I thought your name was, and mentioned my Myspace alias. So I said, let me see your Myspace, and he told me he didn't have one, but had looked me up on his brother's account. I didn't feel like dealing with it, but starts getting desperate for my attention and IMing me every time he sees me come back from being idle. These straight/closet/virgin types are generally trouble online. I'm sure he'll be messaging me pretty soon tonight.

Chainsaw

From Chainsaw (Titan Media)
JoeGage.com

Collin O'Neal, François Sagat, and Jacko

CollinONeal.com
via Attempted Entertainment

Kenneth Anger News

I'm a huge Kenneth Anger fan - naturally, any filmmaker whose subjects include gay bikers and teenagers fantasizing about being raped by sailors gets my attention - and I was excited to see his name appear on the New York Post's Page Six today. Apparently Darwin Porter, the author of a "sequel" to Anger's infamous book Hollywood Babylon, is now fearing for his life, as he's received word that Anger has placed "Satanic death curses" on him.

"'It's very bizarre, but a close friend of Kenneth told me he's come out with Satanic incantations against me,' Darwin Porter told Page Six at the Museum of Sex bash for 'Hollywood Babylon: It's Back!' co-written with Danforth Prince.

'I have to protect myself. He was a friend of Aleister Crowley, the Satan worshipper who drank the blood of virgins,' Porter said.

Anger - who made gay- and occult-themed avant-garde flicks like 'Fireworks' (1947) and 'Scorpio Rising' (1963), and collaborated with Mick Jagger, Jimmy Page and Charles Manson pal and convicted killer Bobby Beausoleil - is recognized as the godfather of the modern scandal book.

'Hollywood Babylon' was an instant best-seller with its seamy tales and explicit photos of movie stars' secret gay flings, sex orgies, murder and suicide. In the 1980s, Anger wrote 'Hollywood Babylon II,' which had a hog-fat Elizabeth Taylor on the cover."

I was sad to read in the article that Anger has been suffering from prostate cancer and has predicted that he will die this coming Halloween. He's an incredibly important filmmaker and gay artist who has not gotten as much credit as he deserves. I'm putting two of his most important films up here. They'll probably get taken offline pretty soon. Here's one of his first films, "Fireworks," from 1947:



And this is probably his most influential film; "Scorpio Rising," from 1964:



Scandal Scribe Fears a Curse - New York Post

Luke Hass and Victor Steele

I almost bought this type of harness...


RearStable.com

Update on My "Slave"

About a week ago I put up a post [here] about how I'd made the mistake of leading on an old fuck bud and potentially inviting him back into my life even though he was a completely untrustworthy flake who was prone to disappearing all the time, especially after telling me he wanted to be my "slave."

Fortunately for me, he hasn't been online or tried to call me at all since I talked to him on the phone and agreed to meet at some point, which is notable considering the fact that he was IMing me at least once a day trying to get my attention before that...

It seems that I'd forgotten just how much of a flake he actually was. I guess everything worked itself out on its own...

Diesel Washington and François Sagat

DieselWashington.blogspot.com

Obscure Music, and My Being Bad with Children

I was watching my six year old niece for an hour this afternoon, and she was sitting in my room while, unbeknownst to her, I was looking for some gang bang type pics to put on my blog. She was bored and irritable and started telling me to put on some music. I gave in, but decided to put on my mp3 of Q. Lazzarus' "Goodbye Horses" - which of course is famous for being played in the background during an infamous Buffalo Bill scene in the film Silence of the Lambs.

My niece got quiet, and this disturbed look came on her face. I know that she hasn't seen the movie, but she suddenly said, "This song is inappropriate," her mother must have been throwing that word around. I asked her why she thought that, and she said, "I don't know, it just is!" and left the room. I guess she could somehow sense what it was...

Here's the song:



...which may already be a gay blog cliché.

Also, the interview went pretty well, but they're not gonna tell me until next week. We'll see.

Nick Piston and Alan Gregory

More Treasure Island...


From Breeding Season (Treasure Island Media)
TreasureIslandMedia.com

Hit Count Milestones

Yesterday, for the first time, this blog got over 100 hits in one day. I'd like to think that's pretty good for having been up only two months. It's definitely surpassed all of the other blogs I've attempted, and god knows I love the attention. I'm glad this site's been working out.

Ian Jay

I'm now older than this kid.



From Breeding Ian Jay (Treasure Island Media)
TreasureIslandMedia.com

Twenty-One

My dad was excited about it all. He took me to a bar at 11:30 PM on June 1st, so that I could buy a drink at midnight. I'm not out to him, so I was a bit worried about not getting anything that could signal my sexual orientation, but I figured I could get something extravagant under the guise of wanting to get wasted as quickly as possible. I ordered two Long Island Iced Teas and both were on the house - the bartender was impressed that I showed up at midnight.

For dinner on my birthday I went out to eat with my dad and my niece. I decided it'd be best to order what my dad got - a vodka tonic. When the waitress took my order, she laughed because she thought I was joking, since I look young after all...

After that, it was a Monday night, so I didn't do anything crazy. I drank box wine with a straight male friend and talked about our lives as they'd been in high school. I guess things were less complicated - I was deep in the closet, he and his girlfriend were also trying to figure themselves out. Life was swell...

Tonight I went out to eat with my mother and shared a bottle of wine with her, then drank some more Chardonnay with two friends from high school, and here I am now...

Job interview Thursday...wish me luck...

Ken Browning

Colt Studio Group

Mistakes We All Make...

I did something really bad yesterday, and I've been regretting it...

To put it short, I talked to my former "slave" on the phone, and I made him think that we might possibly end up meeting again.

It's a long story, but here goes. A few years ago, when I had just turned 19 years old, I started talking to a guy online who lived in my area and seemed sane. He was attractive, ten years older than me, had a nice body, and we talked about meeting. He mentioned that he owned a pair of leather pants, and liked leather...this ended up being an understatement. He brought me to his house and when I went into his room, he had a vast array of gear laid out - cuffs, gags, collars, rope. He told me he wanted me to "dom" him, and told me to put the collar on him, cuff his wrists, gag him, and started calling me "Sir." This was my first introduction to BDSM.

We hung out a few times and he began flaking out. I didn't have a car, so he would tell me he was on his way to pick me up, and then disappear. The odd thing was that the more he began to flake out, the more submissive he would get with me online and on the phone. He started telling me that he wanted to be my slave, and to be owned by me. One time he offered to give me his house. Another time, he "gave me permission" to make any changes in his life as long as I didn't make him quit his job...At the same time, he would never show up. The situation got worse because of how angry this would make me. I remember waiting for him and thinking to myself, When I get this boy tied and gagged, I'm gonna break his limits. I don't care that he doesn't wanna get fucked, I'm gonna get back at him.

I realized that this was all unhealthy, and I made the decision to not see him again, or even attempt to. I didn't wanna be that kind of a person, but I felt that he was driving me to it, he got me so angry with him. It infuriated me more to think that he was pretty much an adult, with a very well paying job, a nice house, and I was just a kid, so how dare he fuck around with me like that. He IMed me for two years after that, begging to meet again, and I always said no, and that he was a flake, and that I didn't trust him, and that that kind of relationship in particular needed to be based on trust, so it was over.

Then for some reason, I let him call me, and I told him that I'd think about hanging out with him again. It was a fucking stupid of me to say that, I guess I was just horny. But now I'm in a situation where I know he's going to try to accuse me of being a flake and calling me all the shit I called him if I don't meet with him.

That's the thing about all relationships - there's a power struggle, no matter what. That's why I never completely "got" BDSM, because no matter what roles you define yourself as, there's always a dom and a sub. In this situation, I guess we're still fighting to figure out who really is which role. I think that for the good of both of us, I need to just forget about him. I don't wanna be the type of person who gets angry enough to break the rules.