Friday, May 30, 2008

Writing, and Gay Blogs in General...

A lot of my friends have told me that I put too much porn on this blog, and there's not enough writing about myself on here. Believe or not, they think that the best parts of my blog are when I talk about things that are happening in my own life. There's a few reasons why I haven't devoted a greater part of my blog to written posts, including the fact that about half of my visitors come from search engine results when people look up porn stars...

Aside from that, it's an issue of identity for this blog, and it seems like there's two directions I could go in if this were to become a more personal blog made up of mostly written posts. If I went in one direction, it would probably end up sounding like Erik Rhodes' blog [seen here] - I would write about my emotions, shit that was going wrong in my life, drama, and I would probably get a lot of people writing insensitive comments to piss me off/motivate me to keep writing. The problems with that type of blog are that 1.) I probably don't have as interesting a life as Erik Rhodes (no porn career, not as many drugs) and 2.) I'm not famous enough to attract the trolls that put up two or three comments each time he posts and send him their phone numbers.

The other direction to follow would be the pattern of the "bareback blogs" and to just write about all the crazy sex I have, people I fuck over or lie to. There are a few problems there too, the most obvious being that I don't have bareback sex with strangers, or PNP, or try to tear open condoms with my teeth without the guy I'm fucking knowing. Also, that type of blog went out of style a year ago, and most of them were fake anyway and just trying to get a rise out of people/get them off. Everything I write on this blog about myself is real, no exaggerations.

Of course there's another type of blog that I'd especially not like to fall into being, but that I'm probably particularly vulnerable to become - that's the young gay blogger in his 20's trying to make it in New York City. This blogger capitalizes on his sensitivity - which he expresses by taking pictures of himself naked in his bedroom in the dark on his webcam. He gives all of his friends nicknames in an Andy Warhol/Michael Alig superstar manner, and mentions doing things that are supposed to be camp, but end up coming off as hipster irony (which also went out of style...). He lives in Bed-Stuy, but in his head it's Williamsburg in 2003. There's a picture of him drinking tea naked and staring out a window into a Brooklyn street. He's somewhere listening to Siouxsie and the Banshees right now...

This is a fate I'd like to avoid...

I guess the point is that I'm going to try to put some more writing on this blog from time to time, while also maintaining some originality, and I'm going to put up all the porn I want, while conspiring to get more hits. That's my pledge.

Best,
Mascdudewriter

4 comments:

Thonnibg said...

Put whatever you want.This is still your blog.
To be honest when I started my blog I didn`t imagine it would turn out to be such a porn blog.But now I don`t mind:)))
Of course I put some thoughts from time to time too.
Follow your intuition!You can combine them both-porn and personal stuff as you already does.And I think you`re doing it totally ok.

mac20 said...

This blog is always interesting and ballsy, without being coy or self-absorbed. I appreciate the five-paragraph monologue in this post, first, because it's refreshingly coherent and well-written, and second, because maybe too few 21-year-old gay boys/men/bloggers have the evolved p.o.v. for trenchant self-analysis. I wonder in which "blog version" you'll think these comments belong?

mascdudewriter said...

I appreciate the positive responses. I guess I'd like to think of them as belonging to none of those blog types, which is what I've been going for. I think there is probably room for more in-depth writing on here, and I do get bored of porn from time to time, but we'll see. I'm glad to get the feedback.

Sue said...

The blog is yours to do with as you please. I used to write a lot of stuff. Now I write when I have the time and energy, fantasies, book reviews, etc.. I post lots of porn because I like it and I like that it brings many hits. I have figured out how to get rid of my nav bar so that no one can flag my blog. Ask Toni how to do it and he can send you the instructions via email. That way you won't get that censor warning.